Do dreams have to be reachable ?

I love books. Really, if I could, I would just jump into my favorite ones and life in it forever. But I can't, because I don't have the Power to do things like that. Even though it would be the best thing that ever could happen to me (yes, I think i'll never be the doctors companion and travel trough time and space with him and the TARDIS). So this could be the best thing ever.
But even this idea looks bad. Maybe I should stop having dreams which could never happen. Maxbe I should have some dreams like meeting Benedict Cumberbatch, Jennifer Lawrence, Josh Hutcherson… and so on. What ? You  meant something else ? What ? Reality ? What's that ? You're funny. I never heard  this one before! And that's me every time someone tells me about dreams and what they want to do. Don't get me wrong: I admire people who know exactly what they would like happen and what they want to do. I just never had this knowing about very thing in my life. And to stay true: I never really wanted that. I was happy with my happy, childish dreams and don't want to think about the  future and my future job. My future life. Everyone who saw Back to the Future 2 that we're going to have flying cars next years. And Hoverboards. And all that stuff.
It might sound silly and a bit selfish, but I don't really want to think about the environment issues, because I kind of want everything to stay exactly the way it is. And I know that these are childish thoughts, because everything changes so fast, but it is what I think. Because I think that I'm deep down my brain, I'm a little five year old, who likes dolphins, Teddies and Childsongs. (and deep down there I still love them). Sometimes I hate being that way. But with every day I grow older and I'm starting to think that I'm good the way I am. That the way I dream is  exactly the way should dream, because who ever made me (and if it's just my parents having sex, that's  fine by me) he or her or it thought that it made sense. So i'm going to trust the person, because for this person it made totally sense so i'm trying to understand and appreciate what they did.

Every new year...

As anyone on this earth knows: 2014 has started! Yeah! But every time on New Years Eve i'm starting to wonder two things: 

1. What is going to change this year ?

And

2. What is definitely going to happen this year ?

And every time I come up with things like: Mokingjay part 1 is coming out, in October i'm going to be 16 and i can drink Guinnes, I can read many new books, the TFIOS film is finally going to be shown in theaters and things like that. And Although it's  a good idea for me be exited about things in the future which I want to happen so badly, I need to focus on the things that are happening anyway. 

Many people are seeing a great opportunity in having a new year, because they think they  can change their life and their whole personality just because they made a list and wrote next year I want to be nice to my math teacher and for some reasons they really believe this is going to happen, just because they made new Year Resolutions. 

I can just tell for myself, but I'm also writing down what I want to change the next year. But know while writing it down, that it isn't going to happen and that I'm not doing it anyway. I'm not even trying to do it and that's real problem: I'm to lazy. And that's so annoying (even for me!). Everytime I want to change it and stop being lazy, but the truth is: i can't. It's me. And that's the thing about new year Resolutions there are things you just can't change and do, but we always believe we can. (or at least I do).  So I'm also thinking about things that I really can during the next year, like: getting good marks in math and physics, don't spend so much time on the internet, concentrate on school stuff, don't watch Doctor Who the whole day, eat more healthy things, go to bed earlier, stop drinking so much Cola, learn a new language, stop falling in love with fictional characters. So I'll try to all of it or at least the most, because I just want my life to be better. Every year I want to have a new start, but I can't. I'm me. And have to be proud to be me.