Recently I listened a lot to the music of Nirvana. I had loved 'Smells like teen Spirit' for a long time, but I never knew that the song that I liked that much was 'Smells like Teen Spirit'. But about a month ago I watched the 'new' Finebrothers' Video Teens react to Nirvana and it seems like this Video changed my life-in a few different ways.
Because when I finished watching the Video I started to look up 'Nirvana' and 'Kurt Cobain' and read many articles about the band and him.
A few days later I got my dads old Nirvana CD's and started listening. And I looked up the lyrics. And I listened again and again and again. Because someone seemed to understand me and felt like that was the first time in a really long time.
The first time I really was obsessed with a band or a special style of music was when I was 11 or 12 and I watched glee. And I watched the season finally where Quinn gets her baby and Vocal Adrenaline wins the Regionals.
And I liked the song that they sung a lot. After my mum told me that the song was 'Bohemian Rhapsody' by Queen, I wanted to listen to more music by Queen and got obsessed with the music. But after a while I liked Imagine Dragons more. Or Green Day.
My taste seemed to change a lot more than I liked it. I also loved my brothers music when he was still in his band, but when he left the band it felt wrong to enjoy the music that the others did without him.
I still love the other bands that I've mentioned here and a lot of other bands, but i'd never thought that I would love Nirvana's music some day so much.
Before I actually listened to it, I always thougt it was music where evryone just screams and you can't understand a word they're singing or saying. But now I feel like I had lost my voice, but I found someone who speeks what I want to say.
Sunday, April 27, 2014
Friday, April 25, 2014
I have no idea...why should I ?!
I often have to write many stories and articles and texts as school work and nearly every time i have one problem: i don't get insparation. As much as I try, i can't write anything that sounds good for me. And that's a reason why i hate exams and class tests. Because in a class test you have to be creative and you have to be perfect and you have to have a good language.
In school i'm in creative writing and I've had a long time when I had no idea. I didn't know what I wanted to write or had even a idea what I wanted to write about. And I started to realise that I am never happy with anything I do. I don't like stories I wrote, the pictures I've drawn. Eventhough people migh tell me they're good. I 'll always find something that I want to change about it. I always do. And you wanna know why ? Because I seem to think that I do is not as goood as the things the others do. Or I used to think that, because I always knew that feeling from school. When I was good at something I'd bet that someone was better than me. It started in primary school and it never changed. I always had someone who maybe just thought he or she was better than me. Better at drawing, wrtiting or just being someone a good friend. And I think until I never really thought about how I always think that the others maybe aren't better than me. That I am maybe am the best at something. I'm saying that I am. I just could be, ok ? Maybe you're not reading this anymore at this point, because you don't think this post is intresting enough to read or you though you may get inspiration for an essay or anything (if so, I'm sorry that the title maybe miss leaded you), but if you're still reading this, I just want to say thank you for reading my opinion.
In school i'm in creative writing and I've had a long time when I had no idea. I didn't know what I wanted to write or had even a idea what I wanted to write about. And I started to realise that I am never happy with anything I do. I don't like stories I wrote, the pictures I've drawn. Eventhough people migh tell me they're good. I 'll always find something that I want to change about it. I always do. And you wanna know why ? Because I seem to think that I do is not as goood as the things the others do. Or I used to think that, because I always knew that feeling from school. When I was good at something I'd bet that someone was better than me. It started in primary school and it never changed. I always had someone who maybe just thought he or she was better than me. Better at drawing, wrtiting or just being someone a good friend. And I think until I never really thought about how I always think that the others maybe aren't better than me. That I am maybe am the best at something. I'm saying that I am. I just could be, ok ? Maybe you're not reading this anymore at this point, because you don't think this post is intresting enough to read or you though you may get inspiration for an essay or anything (if so, I'm sorry that the title maybe miss leaded you), but if you're still reading this, I just want to say thank you for reading my opinion.
Tuesday, April 8, 2014
Concentration, Concentration now begins and STOP!!!
Lately i've been having exams (and i'm going to have the last one tomorrow-wish me luck please btw). And at this time i learned alot about me as person-for example that i can concentrate better than i haven't had much breakfast and am a little tired. But let me start from the beginning. Last Thursday i had my German exam and it was pretty easy. We had 135 minutes to write and i finished it in about 60 minutes.
So i thought: hm...you're not as good in math as you are in german but if the exam is as easy as the one in German was, it'll be fine. So, over the weekend, i looked at my work sheets and learned, but not that much, because i thought: if German is that easy and you thought before it won't be, Math will be easy too.
So i spent most of the weekend on the internet, watching stuff that no one wants to know about and on the evening of Sunday, i was starting to get worried, if i was going to screw the exam or not.
But i told myself over and over and over and over to calm down and that i was prepared enough to write a good grade.
So far, so good. In class room i was really calm and i thought, ok i'm writing a good grade. After we good the exam and we could start, i worked a while. But after maybe 100-115 minutes i couldn't concentrate anymore. I ate a bunch of sweets and Apples, but nothing helped. So, after a friend of mine had finished, i decided that i was finished, too and that i wanted to go home.
Now i'm trying to stop myself from worrying again. Hopefully English won't have this problems with me.
So i thought: hm...you're not as good in math as you are in german but if the exam is as easy as the one in German was, it'll be fine. So, over the weekend, i looked at my work sheets and learned, but not that much, because i thought: if German is that easy and you thought before it won't be, Math will be easy too.
So i spent most of the weekend on the internet, watching stuff that no one wants to know about and on the evening of Sunday, i was starting to get worried, if i was going to screw the exam or not.
But i told myself over and over and over and over to calm down and that i was prepared enough to write a good grade.
So far, so good. In class room i was really calm and i thought, ok i'm writing a good grade. After we good the exam and we could start, i worked a while. But after maybe 100-115 minutes i couldn't concentrate anymore. I ate a bunch of sweets and Apples, but nothing helped. So, after a friend of mine had finished, i decided that i was finished, too and that i wanted to go home.
Now i'm trying to stop myself from worrying again. Hopefully English won't have this problems with me.
The right timing ?!
Actually I wanted to write about my feelings when I watched '12 Years a Slave' what I did about two or three months ago. You're getting what I want to say ? No ? Let me give you some more excamples. If I have to study for an exam in school I think three weeks before the exam: I should start to learn now. Two weeks before the exam i'm thinking the same, but than I find some Youtube Videos that I really need to watch or a book that I always wanted to read. And one week before the exams I do exactly the same until it's the last possible time to learn and I get so stressed out that nearly can't do anything.
Another thing that i 'love' to do, is when we have to a project in school and I keep until the last week to actually do the project.
Some may call this behavior 'laziness', but i'm not really sure how to call it. So the actually thing this post is about is that i want to say that i'm sorry for the ones that wanted to read things that i've written and for me, because i didn't write much since i started this Blog. And yes, i'm sorry for myself. Am i a weirdo now ? Good, because i think i was one before. Haha, i'm so funny.
Another thing that i 'love' to do, is when we have to a project in school and I keep until the last week to actually do the project.
Some may call this behavior 'laziness', but i'm not really sure how to call it. So the actually thing this post is about is that i want to say that i'm sorry for the ones that wanted to read things that i've written and for me, because i didn't write much since i started this Blog. And yes, i'm sorry for myself. Am i a weirdo now ? Good, because i think i was one before. Haha, i'm so funny.
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